Positivity

I was very grateful for having such a lovely G.P. today. It's my birthday next week and I desperately wanted to know where I was at beforehand. Fortunately she hurried along my bloods and was able to squeeze me in this evening. It was encouraging, tests were mostly normal, a few anomalies but nothing too terrible. She's referred me to another specialist so until my scan I've got nothing to do but wait. But positively. Also she finally gave me the drugs! What a thrill to be able to function in the day time without wanting to vomit everywhere! Though I think the overwhelming thing that's helped me recently has been the support of my friends. I went back to Uni this weekend for the Uni Gospel Choir of the Year competition and my last role as president of gospel (under the promise that I text home every 2 hours - Mum didn't want me to let me go at all). It was so, so hard to tell people. I hate having to make myself needy, I find it so embarrassing, but I was glad that I did tell a plethora of people, but at my own space. My flat mate was an amazing pillar of support and caring who helped me so much throughout the weekend. With everyone else it was just so powerful to have a rush of support and love from so many people. It was a boost that no magical drug could have given me. They were also most amenable to me randomly falling asleep everywhere! Things are looking up. Little steps of day to day life filled to the brim with positivity from every angle. 

-this photo makes me laugh. A lot-